Welcome to my personal introspective digital garden. I’d be lying if I said this wasn’t a rather thorny garden as it’s primary purpose has been to cultivate, investigate, or perhaps just contain my darker struggles and sources of despair. Being as such, I’ll provide some initial disclaimers and warnings which are stated without any irony or intended edginess:
- Some topics discussed are really only for an adult audience (18+). Nothing is intentionally vulgar or lewd, but some of it is simply not intended for who is not of a mature age. I don’t really have anywhere else to discuss them (beyond maybe therapy) and I’ve intended to try to write about them for a while. I obviously can’t stop you, I just make this recommendation as someone who has been younger myself. I intend to write tag pages with any content that might be objectionable so you can browse the site without issue.
- Content here could be challenging to your existing frameworks or beliefs. This is not me bragging about the power of any of my claims or thoughts, but much of my content deals with a crisis of faith and collapse of fundamental frameworks; this site discusses many of the things that caused this (which I found to be persuasive in causing doubts and distress). I would not want to cause that for you, particularly if you are feeling vulnerable, so please take care to not explore any further unless you are very sure of your own beliefs.
- I’m not intending to (nor desiring to) argue with you or your point of view, particularly if you come from a deistic framework. I’m painfully aware of most if not all main theodicies, I have a fairly decent grasp on theology, I’m aware that you can write off anything I say with the following phrases among many others: “They just want to sin.”, “They actually know the truth but choose not to believe it.”, “They’ve just given in to the desires of the flesh.”, “They must just not be predestined.”, “They’ve been given over.”, etc. Furthermore, I have to deal with enough arguments from family, friends, and the like. For the sake of discussion, let’s just not go there if you can help it.
- This garden is meant to be fairly anonymous. It’s possible that someone I know reads this and is able to figure out who I am. I think it’s somewhat unlikely that they will find it, but if you do believe that you know who I am, please disregard it. I will not acknowledge any discussion of topics from this place nor its existence with you. At a minimum, I’d ask that you avoid reading anything marked with the nsfw tag. Some things are not worth knowing.
A map of content can be found here if you would like to proceed: Belief MOC.